Brainseaching and Freewriting

My freewriting took flight into a number of different directions. It began at describing my first encounter of Memphis, which wasn't a very pleasant experience. It spured off into my experience at Memphis College of Art some good, some bad. My educational discussion with myself led to cultural diversity, something I desire for and surprisingly I feel my surrounding lacks due to an only visual art community. Though some people show some facets of other skills and talents, most of the people that I have come into contact with are pronge to the stardards of
"art kids." This personal discussion turned into an exploration of my personal abilities and how the college affected them. This also meant a discussion about my child hood experiences that shaped my personality as and adult and how art became a piece of who I am yet it does not define me. I also started to think about art in relation to personal life and how to create a balance of the two. I even wanted to learn how to make life and art work as a unit which is hard concidering the use of art as an economic gain rather than a hobby. After exploring different ideas about myself and who I am I just decided to write what was on my mind, right at the moment, which happened to be sex, gender roles, my girlfriend, marriage, a fear of not reaching my potential as an artist or simply as a man. Basicly thoughts about life that fired off after I thought of one subject after the next. I ended my brain rant on the topic of conditioned behaviors vs inherent behaviors which led to a sort of conclusion that personal response is affected by social feedback.